My beautiful Brenna,
Today, as you turn two years old, my heart is aching with how much I love you, with how much we have been through since you were born, and with how much you have changed the world already.
Today, I want to tell you one thing, one very important thing that I want you to always know and remember…
Not our world, Brenna. Our world was shaken up. When you shake something, only the strongest pieces remain standing. And the weak pieces fall apart.
Our world was shaken up with your arrival. But the strongest pieces remained – our marriage, our relationships with our family and our dear friends, our home, our jobs and our community support. The most important priorities not only remained but grew stronger. And we came to realize how unimportant those weak pieces were that fell apart and fell off – pieces of our lives that were not priorities. Pieces that didn’t matter.
And with the strongest pieces remaining, we could focus on the important. With the unstable and unimportant pieces gone, we have a clearer view of what is most important.
So…. Thank You.
Our world was not turned upside down. But it was shaken to the core.
And sometimes that’s a really good thing.
And you, precious girl, are more beautiful we could have imagined.
I know you may ask me one day if I ever wished you were different, or looked different, or that your skin or your hair was different.
My answer was at your birth, is now and always will be: no.
You were created exactly as God wanted you to be, and all I see when I look at you is perfection. I love every single piece of you…every tiny finger and toe, every wisp of hair, your wonderful little nose, every single expression that you make, your laughter, your sweet voice. You truly are everything your dad and I have ever wanted in a daughter.
Today, as you turn two years old, there is a part of my heart that feels such a relief. Because the past two years have been really challenging at times for our family. Your babyhood was hard. But on top of that relief, I feel pride. Pride for you and pride for us. Pride at all that we have all achieved in the last two years. Pride at how hard we’ve worked to strengthen our love and our relationships and our faith, because that doesn’t always come easily.
Yesterday, we sang “You are my sunshine”, and there is a line that I hope you’ll always remember: “You’ll never know, dear, how much I love you.”
You will never know the extent of my love, my pride and my devotion to you. So instead, just know this:
Happy 2nd birthday, to my incredible daughter.